i'am sick since ytd night. stomach was really in pain & rolling on the bed. whole night never sleep. i applied medicated oil onto my stomach, thought in the morning i will be alright.. but apparently not. was very upset, stomach feeling bloated. so terrible.. wanted to go work but was in pain & feeling weak. so i took MC instead.
dont know why this happens.. was still feeling alright after my work ytd. did i ate something wrong? i dont think there is. i only had mum's soup. but she was alright. sighs. i went to toilet but nothing changes :'( no mood today~
went to clinic just now, doctor says i've gastric pain. i was like? huh? but i always have my lunch & dinner on time. i ate alot leh. maybe its because i didnt ate breakfast in the morning. had breakfast & lunch tgt :( i slim down again. was on MC for the first time in my current company. doctor gave me so many pills :( he told me not to eat spicy & fried food for the time being. preferably porridge & lighter food. no chilli padi :'( nobody take cares of me now.
arghs! nothing to do at home. sians. only online. no nice shows on tv. feeling abit better but somehow, stomach still feeling bloated & pain :'( just now went to buy herbal tea for family & myself. mum's having sore throat.
i wanna thanks those guys whom like me, thinks i'am a good gf. i cant accept anyone right now. i just wanna stay single first, earn more money & get my license. nothing else. yes, i do love my ex-bf still. but i wont be with him anymore. he will always stay in my heart. when i'am ready, i will go into a new relationship.
my love for him has fade when i know something. very upset. so its better for me to let go now. i dont wanna hurt even more. i respect his decision. i just want him to be happy :) all the best in everything you do. i wanna be happy too. i dont wanna force anything~ when its gone, it will never be back. this time i'am serious. i need one month's time to get over. future things, future then say. i wont know who's my last destination. love is all around~~♥
jim, i know you care for me alot. everyday view my blog, concern bout me. alot of pp says you're good, ask me to give you a chance. but its not fair to you when i still have feelings for him now. i'am not ready for a new relationship now. i hope you understand. sorry. thanks for your concern all this while. i really appreciate that. you're still my friend.
i'am still deciding on whether wanna get iphone anot. my brother getting one today. iphone seems good. so many functions & can surf net. eg. facebook, msn, youtube. but up to 12gb only. exceed limit capped @ $30. but i'am used to sony phones. i find iphone not really user friendly leh. i'am used to T9 function. iphone is like keyboard. heard from my colleague that downloading songs very mafan. need to have itunes before transferring the songs in. all must be in mp3 format. my songs mostly is in wma format loh :( very confused now. comments? my 21st birthday is coming :) i'am opening chalet @ downtown east. between 10-12 sep. most probably on 11th sep. only invite close friends, family & colleagues :)
alrights, i wanna go rest again.. very tired & still feel pain. hope i will feel better later. gg back to work tmr. think alot of things for me to do. what shall i have for dinner tonight? and finally finish 海派甜心 episode 12. awaiting the next episode.
just now had dinner with mum tgt. she asked me how are things over him & me? i dont know how to answer. i told her we broke off already. very upset. then she asked, why breakup then? i say i dont know. sighs. then again she asked, will we be back tgt? i told her no more liao. cause he gave me up, gave up this relationship. and again she asked, then we still got contact? he got call me or sms me? i replied no.. no more contact le. feel like crying again :'( i told her that his parents treat me very good, feel bad towards his parents as well. sorry.
i miss dad, badly. whenever i'am sad or feeling down, i will think of him. i wonder how is he. hope he's fine. if time could turn back, i would want my dad to be around, dote me. i envy those girls.. what they want, their daddy will get for them. but not for me. i need to save money to buy things i want. i dont take my mum's money. i also wanna be daddy's girl or bf's girl. sadly, my dad left us since young. *cries* i really hope there's a guy whom will be by my side, dote & love me. i want pp to take cares of me. its so hard to find one. so hard to find the person you love & the person whom loves you.
gg to watch tv now. wanna rest early today. still feeling terrible :( hope tmr will be better..
p/s: my heart is where all things are made possible, and it is where your love resides~~♥
