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its been such a long time since i've last blogged. unknowingly, its a year! so now lets see what i have to say & update~ i dont know if anyone is reading this but i just wanna pen down my thoughts here..

p/s: its gonna be a long entry.

i have got no time to blog ever since i worked on sunday banking. the reason why i'am back to blog is because while i'am daydreaming, i came to realised i have a blog. if not, probably this blog will long be gone.

well, i have got so much things to update but i dont know where to start from.. so, i will just randomly write what i thought of.

earlier on, i went to visit my blog, looking through the entries that i have pen down in the past. my eyes teared, and i really miss those days, memories etc.. our taiwan trip tgt. memories is always memories. what we could do is let go and move on eventually. but i'am still glad we are still friends.. time flies, and it has been a year plus ever since we broke up. its a sad thing to recall.

ahhh, but then, i'am strong now & have move on with my life, and so do you. perhaps, our fate ends. nevertheless, i do enjoy your presence for the one year we've been tgt. i thanks for all the things that you have done for me, your love, care & concern and made me a better person! to be frank, its never easy for me when you left. i cried, i regret, but i told myself, things wont go back the way they are. thereafter, i straightened out my thoughts, and decided to be strong! it took me half a year to get over this. there's too many things for me to remind me of you. whats the point of regretting when its over? its always when gone, and you regret, its too late.

family giving pressure, its part of the problem. if things werent like this, i believe things will not turn out this way either.

truly regret, and things i have done in the past that upsets you because of J. the past two relationship fails. and so, i can no longer put myself into any relationship for the time being, cause i'am just simply, one word, FEAR. i leave it all to fate. its no longer important to have bf for now. i'am happy with what i'am now, and i feel comfortable with it. life still goes on~ single is not a bad thing. by then, perhaps i will be single for life.

i heard J is getting married soon, and i wish him happiness! lately, he text me. but i dont really wanna get too close with him. i just simply dont want things to be complicated. sorry. after hearing this news, i have a weird feeling i dont know why. perhaps just dont feel good. but its not that i still have feelings for him. i have got over him. its coming 3 years. omgggg. no matter what, happy marriage!

alrights! enough for all this sad part! now its time to share my worklife!

been working in ocbc as an SA for the past two and the half years were never easy & been tiring standing for long hours. now i have such ugly legs, veins! HATE IT! thought of gg for laser treatments but it costs S$10k! i was like WHAT?! so pricey and drop the idea. my friends told me just leave it. S$10k can go europe trip! and ya, sighs. well, after working so long as an SA, decided to move on to other jobscope. its been too long as an SA. i have this problem, as always. cant make up my mind what i really wanna do.

and so, i have lots in mind. air stewardess, pfc, ro, sm.. i have been thinking and thinking. or should i just leave the bank and go for further studies to obtain a degree? all this later come to a question mark. it starts here..

i met a lady who's a financial planner in the bank while i'am combing queue. she wanted to groom me, and wants me to join her. i have never ever thought of being a financial planner, cause i dont believe insurance. then, she managed to convince me and i wanted to learn from her. why? cause she's a very successful person, one of the MDRT. and therefore, i decided to leave the bank. i tendered, but withdraw later on. my boss asked me to reconsider and offered me pfc role but i turned down the offer. my family told me i made a impulsive decision. they said i should clear the papers first before leaving, at least i still have income. what they say is true, and so i stayed.

i felt bad that i couldnt join her but still, i went to take the papers. i cleared M5 & M9 so far. haven took M9A & HI yet. wanted to do so, cause i can have the papers cleared first. in the future, i know i will go into sales one day. its only sales industry that can earn more income.

thinking what am i working as now? i'am at HV premier as a SM now, one and only SM there. and ya, i have a very nice BM, a very good one. he's such a nice guy! nothing to pick on. eventually not willing to go there as its a deferred banking, no extra allowance. i would rather go normal or sunday banking. but as there are limited premier centres, its only HV or thomson. i would prefer thomson cause its a normal banking and i can go back earlier. but a pity, thomson would only be open at the end of the year. so i have no choice but to go HV. well, not so bad after all as i have got a superb nice BM! i would only need to work from monday to friday, yes, five days work. saturday & sunday off but trying to get used to it. sunday banking is good, more offdays & extra allowance. its good for my age people as we have got no commitments. but to those with family, its definitely not.

okay, i'am happy there & life is easier now compared to SA. good thing i have my own table & i can sit, stand whenever i want to! =) one thing bad about it is, i miss my NEX colleagues. especially those whom i'am close with. i rarely had lunch with my current colleagues. normally i would packed salad as my lunch. ahha, ON DIET! only weekdays lunch. my premier RM & RO all very nice. another good thing to share with is, even though my allowance is being cut away, no sunday banking allowance, no credit cards & loans referral, now it become my motivation to sell ewc. all i want is to earn more money & cover back my allowances! =) hope & pray more to come!

now, its time to share things that make me smile~

above, a picture, after my company event. i love going company events, and met up with other friends in the company. service night this year 18sep were held at raffles convention centre this year. yes, took part this year again as it was a last minute decision. not enough people to join in. get to know more pp & had training tgt. it was fun i would say. this year we dressed up like snsd. sadly, we didnt won anything. but still, we enjoyed!

for the past two days, 9nov, it was our CFS Annual Dinner & Dance 2012 held at RWS this year, same as the last. the theme: titans of the bands! supposingly, have to dress up as your favourite band, rocking style! but apparently, i did not. i dress toga dress again this year, just coincidence. the dinner ends at about 11pm and thereafter went second round at powerhouse. stayed till 3am. one of my friend left tgt with me. i drove myself back home that night! woohoo! HAPPY! cause my friend were tipsy, drank abit too much. yippee, safely home! :D

yessss, its the end of my post. i shall stop here. have got no idea when will be the next post. well, end of year coming. looking forward to december! =) AND, MY BKK, TAIWAN, KOREA TRIP! <3 wishing everyone happy always!

yay, time for bed! working tmr, and shall rest early! tuesday is a PH! = rest day~ good nights peeps! sweet dreams!

*merry christmas in advance* jingleeee bellssss! <3

Elaine.NG エレン
Sweet-Twenty24
13 Sept 1989
Zodiac: Virgo
Crossover;Singaporean